Follow-up to juggling posting with ill health
For a while now, I’ve been off the radar completely as far as blogging and social media are concerned. This wasn’t something I was happy about. In fact, I felt as though I was letting everyone down, my blog readers, my Twitter followers, the people who attended the mental health chats I host.
I wasn’t in a good way. I have struggled with both mania and severe depression and have been seen for a week by the crisis team because I was struggling with suicidal thoughts. Not only is it a miracle that I am writing again, it’s a miracle that I am still here at all.
I still have a long way to go and I really need to stop having such high expectations of myself. I have a house move to sort out ready for the 28th which could be an amazing adventure of university and city-life, or it could mean that I end up in hostels if certain things aren’t resolved soon.
I am extremely nervous. Uni means so much to me, I’ve been accepted on the course, to get this far then miss out would break my heart. I feel like crying a lot of the time. I know I’ve made the best decision for me but it could mean that I lose all of my support and have nothing to replace it with. I’m just so desperate for things to work out for me for a change.
I know that juggling blogging with university and ill health, will be hard work, but it is something that I feel passionate about and want to do.
I guess I mainly want to say thank you to the loyal readers and followers who have stuck around while i’ve felt so lost. You are such a huge encouragement to me and I look forward to getting to know you better in the future.